In the Spring of 2013, I began to acutely feel the pull to go to the nations, specifically Korea. The craving for Korea was so deep, I began devouring Korean Dramas--which I had previously never had an interest in. I would lose sleep some nights just to finish watching a drama. I thought I was totally backsliding.... Continue Reading →
On February 3, 2017 the Back to Basics Collective put together a concert/fundraiser, When Love Says Go, to support my upcoming longterm missions to Asia. I'd been hashtagging #WhenLoveSaysGo over the past year as I traveled to different countries and cities for ministry and missions, as just a simple statement of--well, wherever God tells me to go,... Continue Reading →
I've been thinking about joy and suffering. About the fact that for the joy set before Him, Jesus endured the cross--the embodiment of humiliation, agony, iniquity, darkness, chaos, sorrow, death; separation from everything and anything beautiful, peaceful, wonderful, good, true, just and worthy; abandonment from His Father, from the Love that he had known since before... Continue Reading →
I have so much hair, and a lot that falls out. The bed I’m sleeping on has white sheets white pillow and white blanket and you can very visibly see the azure, lavender, silver, emerald, sienna strands of my hair collecting on the bed and falling to the floor, casually swept to the corners and... Continue Reading →
Missionarygance [missionary + arrogance]: conquering, ruling & didactic attitude toward the culture, people, or region you're sent to. Assumes that you're wiser, smarter, or somehow spiritually superior to those you're meant to serve and partner with. Missionarygance most likely has historical/discursive roots in colonization & western imperialism. Results in presumptive & overall donkey-like behavior that can be harmful to building... Continue Reading →
but, what if you hadn’t walked into that space? only you could have left that imprint as you sat there, still and free enjoying your mug of coffee pressing pause, giving thanks long after you left the gray metal seat & the yellow cushion that clung to your back, the fan that sent its tendrils... Continue Reading →
Panorama: a complete view from pan- [all] + horama [Gk. sight, spectacle, that which is seen; from horan, to look, see] // I've been thinking about blind spots. We all have them--if we're humble enough to admit. We live inside opaque walls (God-forbid you see through me), But our intimate souls crave close-ups; our brilliant intellects chase microscopic analysis, deconstruct &... Continue Reading →
bloodthirsty covenants we sold our brothers and sisters severed bloodties between babies and their mothers stole queens from their husbands so that our souls would unholy prosper wake up, repent, (it’s still happening) open your eyes (it’s still happening) how many more lives must be shot down when His blood was enough how many more babies silenced when... Continue Reading →
A few months ago I asked a graphic designer friend of mine, Michelle Yejin Kim, to create a logo for me. During the discussion and mood boarding, she asked me, "So...what is Smashed Saint? What does it mean?" I shared with her that "Smashed Saint" carried the story of my redemption. Of how Jesus truly saved me... Continue Reading →
Confession: I don't actually like politics. There was a time in my childhood that I considered being a lawyer, a judge, a politician, the President. But I quickly got bored with all the posturing and empty rhetoric that honestly didn't make any sense to me and seemed like a whole big hullabaloo that complicated life, made people easily offended... Continue Reading →
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